*** My Last Day at Work ***

I finally had the guts to talk to my supervisor last night, handed her my resignation letter, and told her what I have been wanting to tell her for the longest time. I finally did it. I finally had the guts to resign. Although the effectivity date will be on Friday, January 26, today is my last day at work. I feel sentimental and sad, but like what I told my sup, it's really time for me to go. You just know that it's time to go. And that somehow, this is the farthest that I can go. Three years is a long time. It surely is. And honestly, I have learned a lot from this job. I love my job, but now the zest has gone out... and its getting tiring. But I am just so lucky to have found friends that I have bonded with over the years.

I don't really know what's in store for me after this. Everything happens for a reason. And if I will not be open to the change that will be happening in my life, how can I move on? I have to admit that I am scared to look for another job again. Everything about it scares me. The finances most importantly, but then again, if I am not going to take the risk now, then when will I? I'm very positive that I will be finding a new job that will be better than my current / former job. And I know that the only thing that's making me hold on to this are my friends, but I will not lose them, I know I will gain new friends, and that even if we are not together, we can still each other.

I just feel very sentimental and sad. But I have to move on. Nothing's happening here. I know I have a lot left in me, and I am willing to start anew. Who knows? :)

PS: I have a new job waiting for me, and training will start on February 5. Lemme see what will happen then. I'm just keeping quiet about this new job, and you know, it makes me think because the salary is way too low for me. But it's just for a back up. Will still continue to look for another job, even if it wont match my current salary, just as long as we're getting there, I will be fine.

Good luck to me. :)

*** To Go or Not to Go ***

Mood: Confused

Yes. Although, admittedly, I already came up with a decision. It’s really time for me to go. However, I am still confused if I should go or I should stay, I have been with my current job for over three years. I have made great friends, the work environment is very relaxed, (well except for some crazy times), and you know, its hard to leave something that has been close to my heart. This is my first job. And I love it, it’s just that, I am not growing in this job. It’s painful to see other people grow, while they leave you behind. And it’s much more painful if they do not fit the job description. I’m not being bitter about this. I have accepted this, but it doesn’t mean that I can stand it. I can’t. What’s worse is that you see this people “abuse” whatever what was given to them. Powertrippers. And it hurts me a lot because I have invested so much time and effort and was not even appreciated. Not even a single tiny bit. I really have nothing against the company itself. Great company. Great benefits. The problem is in my account. Management. I am not saying more, But I guess, that says it all. It’s just sad that there were so many broken and empty promises that were said. It’s just disappointing that the very core group of the account was not appreciated, and definitely, we were not given an opportunity to grow. You know, I really do not mind if I do not get promoted so to speak, but just give it to the people who really deserve it. Not just SOMEe people. I’m sorry. I just have to say this. And apparently, you have lost so many good, reliable and humble people just because of this.

Currently, I am entertaining job interviews. Let’s see. God willing, maybe in my next job, I will be…. More fulfilled.

*** Happy 2007 ***

Ugh, I cant believe, my last entry was before christmas last year. Ahahaha... Well... I have so many kwentos talaga... some good, some bad. as always. Well lemme start.... I was absent for two whole weeks ng december. First kase walang yaya, second kase i was so sick with this unbearable cough, na hanggang ngayon eh meron pa. Nakabalik lang ako sa office nung january 5. and they all thought magreresign na ako. Honestly, dapat sana, kaso kase may pumilit sa ken na magisip muna. Ngayon iong pumilit na ion eh nauna na! (wink* kung sino ka man, kilala mo na kung sino ka.)

Next stop, after kong bumalik eh umabsent na naman ako. Kase, kase, kase... I just realize na wala na talaga akong gana. Wala na ako sa mood. Wala na akong gana. As in. Dati, iong mga responsibilities ko ang pumipigil sa ken mag resign. Ngayon, hindi na talaga ako nagiisip. As in hindi ko na ginagamit utak ko. Eh paano naman kase wala na ren naman sense na gamitin ko utak ko. Bakit kamo? Kase hindi na sha nag funfunction ng normal.Nakakatuyo ng utak ang mag night shift. Puro na lang starbucks at hangin laman ng small brain ko. Wala na nga akong silbi dito sa work, wala pa nangyayri na ok. Unti - unti pang nawawala mga friends ko. I have to admit I made new friends, but my gosh naman, how do you expect me to react kung iong mga kasama ko ng 3 years eh mawala. Aysus. Kaya I have to admit, Im really not using my mind now. Chaka isa pa, feeling ko kelangan ko ren talaga ng break. Bahala na si Batman.

Mommy is staying with us. She's the one taking care of the kids kase umalis si Ate Josie. Hay naku, if I could write another entry about her, malamang ang haba.

Holidays were ok. Hehehe. My christmas was spent cleaning the whole day. My new year was spent hugging Nicko kase takot sa mga firecrackers. Hayun... since wala akong yaya, ako ang yaya. hehehehe... wala ng sense ang post ko noh? hahahaha