The Songs of My Heart

This past few days, I have been constantly listening to my copmuter radio as to avoid hearing the voice of the person that annoys me the most. Listening to them makes me reminisce those carefree days that I used to have... Then i thought, i just maybe should just...once more.... for the last time... listen to the songs of my heart...

FOR THE BOY DOWN UNDER

MAYBE THIS TIME
"Two old friends, meet again, Wearing older faces... talk about the places they have been...Maybe this time, it will be love and they'll find... Maybe now they can be more than just friends"...

The year was 1997... I was anticipating the day that you will come home because it's your cousin's wedding. It's been a while since I saw you... Everybody knows that I have liked you ever since we were kids. But the fact was that...you were shy. Another fact, it's as if you will even look at me...

After the wedding, we went out together with all of your cousins. It was like a reunion because we used to be neighbors, but since they moved to your place, we seldom see them. We went to a bar in Makati and danced the night away. I was so shy. You should have known that. I couldn't talk to you because I was too shy too speak up. You found me boring, but the truth was, I was just waiting for you to talk to me. I didn't want to be the first one to make the move because... i thought at that time, it wasn't proper. You might think that I'm coming on too strong. I remembered when we were talking inside the bar, you asked me if I liked your brother. I said, no, not really, when we were young, but not anymore. I thought I heard you say "GREAT" (or was it good?) What was that all about? ...

Then your brother told my mom that you wanted to go out with me. Was that true?...

When the day finally came for you to leave, January 30, 1997.... I went to your aunt's house to bid goodbye... i was teary eyed, you were too. When you started to shake the hands of the people around me. I was really wondering what will you do, will you shake my hand? Then finally, you went to my side, shook my hands first, then hugged me. I remembered,, when you hugged me, the tears that I was trying to hide fell... You never said anything.... You never said to wait for you. If indeed you feel something, then you could have just told me... I could've waited for you. If you just said so... I just wanted to know... Did you really like me? was there any spark? You told me that you were coming back.... but you never said that you will be coming back for me. You could've told me... Because I could've accepted you. I was willing to wait for you to come back. You did...but I was committed when you come back... maybe I guess, I just wasn't meant to be...

But if you told me to wait... i will do that even if it will take a long time...

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My Complaints About Work (Part 2)

O gosh...it's a Sunday again... and I am really not myself today. Not do I only have to go to work today, i don't feel like going to work anymore. Sheesh! Everyday, it's getting harder and harder for me to get up in the morning. Especially at 3:30 in the morning. It's so hard for me to leave my sleeping babies everyday.

If it's not hard to find a new job, I probably have resigned my post. Nothing is happening to my career. Don't get me wrong. The account that I am with is really great, but I guess, the management is not great after all. I'm sorry, this is just my opnion. Respect that.

Like What I said before... I know I should not be complaining, But I just can't help it. Hay naku!!! It's so hard when you do something that doesn't make you happy. It's so hard to cheat oneself. The sooner you think that you are okay, the worse you get each and every single day.

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My say on the so called Gloriagate Scandal (This is just my Opinion)

Walang originality... Whoever invented this name.. Gosh... You do not have any originality....

She may have made a mistake, but don't we all make mistakes? I mean, for Pete's sake, nobody is spared from making mistakes, whether she be the President, a beggar or the Queen of England, everybody has committed mistakes, which is normal, because we are all human.

I appreciate our people, they are vigilant, and they know how to excercise their own rights... however, do they really know what's going on?

The people want Gloria to step down because they want another president to take her place. And then what? To have that president replaced again? Don't we ever learn?

Yes, people power is a glorious way of excercising our rights - because of what we did to the Marcos Regime - we became famous - but now, because of our famous people power - WE ARE NOW THE LAUGHING STOCK OF THE WORLD. Simply because, we never learn.

Can we just take this aside and move on, and deal this the constitutional way? There are so many things that we need to resolve, and going out there, shouting and waiting for the incumbent president to step down will not help us resolve the problems of our country. I feel that the best thing to do here is to learn how to forgive, but let us always stay vigilant...and if we feel that Mrs. Arroyo is not fit to be president anymore, then on 2010, let's go out and vote another president who we feel is worthy of becoming one.

It's not gonna help if we want her to go down - because no matter what she does, whoever you want to become president will not be able to take that place. The one who is gonna replace Gloria will be her duly elected constitutional successor, VP Noli, not Susan Roces, and definitely not Loren Legarda.

For Ms. Roces, I respect you as an actress. I respect you as the wife of the Late Fernando Poe Jr., but I feel, and I am sorry for saying this, I feel that you just ought to keep it low. Don't get your hands dirty by joining politics. Your husband has tried, and although many of you thought that he was made daya by Gloria, I feel that good people like you should not be in politics after all. There are so many other ways that you can serve the country, and running for president, or being in politics is not the perfect outlet for you. Don't waste your time here. You may never know, you may be the next victim.

For Ms. Legarda, my gosh...tsk!tsk!tsk! NAKAKAHIYA KA. I used to respect you,but not anymore. You know why? because, now, it shows that you're just after one thing - the presidency. You are eaten by your political ambition. You are selfish. I can't help but think that the only reason why you sided with FPJ is because you're just gona sink your claws and dig deeper. You don't know how to be contented. You are losing your self diginity. Why push your electoral protest at a difficult time like this? If you really care for the nation, why at a time like this - Obvious ba? The only reason why you're pushing the protest at this time is because, if and only if, Gloria steps down, VP Noli will become the next president. Since you insist that he made you daya last elections - and if ever you will prove that you won, you will be the so called "duly elected constitutional successor". When that happens, and Gloria steps down - who else will become president? YOU! Ang dumi mo. You're not after the country's welfare, but you're just after your self interest. Tsk!Tsk! Sama ian. Bad ka. Lumalabas tuloy that YOU'RE A SORE LOOSER. But you know what? we are not stupid, and we are not blind. It's really a good thing that I did not vote for you. (Buti na lang talaga)

Let's just pray so that your nation will be reunited. One day, the light will shine on us.

My Complaints About Work

I am so bored and tired. In fact, I don't wanna work anymore. Maybe because I have been working for so long and yet nothing is happening. I got so disappointed when I found out that I wasn't included in the pick. You know what I did? I didn't go to work for a week, calling in sick, each and every single day. The mere truth to that is that - I just don't wanna go to work. Period.

I'm luck to have this job. There are so many people out there who does not work, however, here I am, working yet complaining. It's not I am not grateful. It's just that, I don't feel that I'm growing, or will grow old doing this thing. I want a job that will let me grow as an employee, and I also want a job that will grow with me. Meaning, even if I have gray hair already, I know that I am still working because I love the job that I am doing.

I should not be complaining. But I honestly can't help it. I know! I know I should not be babbling...

But how can you even stop me from talking? I'm just disappointed. You just gotta give it to me just this time.

I hate it when I hear her voice. I hate it when I hear her talk. Her voice, her laughter, everything about her annoys me. She can't even do anything for the team without having to say "I'm sorry, I can't do anything about it"...Duh.... How come you were given that position if you can not do anything about something.... You should be the go between your team and the higher managment. But, You are not doing that. In all fairness, you are good doing technical stuff...but your people skills...hmmmm... honestly...sucks.

I'm sorry. It's not that I don't appreciate you or the things that you do.... it's just that there is something wrong about you. If you ask me what's that? I'd say I don't know... because...I really don't. You better do some self realization so you can discover what we dislike about you. Because, based from our past experience, you're just too insensitive to listen.

Adios!