*** Strawberry Taho: A Weekend in the City of Pines ***

The last time I was in the city of pines, I was 15, and with my mom and my cousins. Baguio still had no SM, Marcos head was still okay, and Kennedy Road was still operational. The stopovers were still in Mabalacat. And of course, the lion's head was still visible.

12 years after, Baguio has now a SM in the middle of the city, and I was with friends. Yep, friends I barely even knew. It was sort of an unplanned /planned trip, needless to say, we went prepared, but not so.

We left after shift Saturday. We were supposed to be staying in the house of one of my officemates, but she wasn't able to go. So, all of three of us headed to Cubao to take the 11:30 am bus to Baguio. We arrived there two hours early, tried to kill time while eating at Chowking. Alas when it was time to go, I was feeling hesistant and a bit excited, after all, it is still Baguio!

The bus ride to Baguio was long. I kept on thinking if it was right to go. Hubby and me were still not speaking to each other, and I knew I needed the time out. The trip proved to be otherwise, and instead of feeling bored, I was never that at all.

We arrived at around 6pm,with no room or hotel to stay at. Carrying our bags across the town proper,we were searching in vain for Legarda st. This is the street where, they say, the affordable transient homes are located. Apparently, we ended up staying in a hotel beside Total Gas Station. It was the Holiday Park Hotel. It was new and nice and comfy and homey. Although,we ended paying more, we liked the place. Once we have checked in, Khryssie and me fell asleep immediately. Having no sleep for over than 24 hours was hell for me. I woke up to Louie's voice asking if we wanted to eat at Volante (or something else, I was too sleepy to even understand what he was saying), and in my mind, his voice was just fading. I found myself off to dreamland and waking up at around 1:30 am. I was looking for Louie, when I realized that he told me that he was going out to meet some friends.

I took a bath (the water was freezing), and it just woke me up. I woke up Khryssie and told her that I was hungry and she was starting to get dressed when Louie arrived drunk. Even in his drunken state, he still managed to go out with us. The three of us had our late dinner /early beakfast at Pizza Volante. It was a small,kinda like Italian resto along Session Road ( I guess), in front of the stairs to the Baguio Cathedral. After that, we kinda dared each other and went on "ghost hunting" at around 3am. We hailed a cab going to the Diplomat Hotel ruins (which was scary)... and I swear, we were just at the gates, but the area was different, and you instantly feel that you are not alone. We were not allowed to come in since it was just dawn, and after hearing that, Louie left me and ran off to the cab, where the manong driver and Khryssie was left. Next stop, we went to Loakan Road, and that was just it. I just lost whatever cool I had left, and I just begged them to just turn around and go back to the city proper. (I'm not going to elaborate on this... but yes, I saw something in white)

After that ghost hunting session, we wanted to go to Nevada square,but apparently.Louie doesnt want us to go there. I don't know why. :( We ended up going back to the hotel to try to get some sleep, but I guess Khryssie and I weren't too sleepy. We decided to leave Louie in the hotel, while he tried to get some sleep,and we went off for our Ukay - ukay challenge.We first went to Burnham park, then later on walked along Session road to look for the Ukay - ukay shops. Apparently,we weren'table to find any shops. I just dont know what happened to all the shops. They were all lost! So we just decided to go to Mines View Park. We had our breakfast, took our turns in the souvenir shops in the area, then waited in vain for Louie (who just said he was going to be in an hour... but swear, it was over an hour)..He had breakfast in hell. Bwahahaha.... then just decided to go back to the town proper - to Victory Liner specifically to buy our tickets home. We got the 7 :40pm, bus ride home which gave us around 7 hours to roam the city.

Yes, you guessed out. After trying to get some evasive sleep, we checked out at 12 nn, then started to tour the town on foot. Yes. On foot (but this time, we left our bags in the hotel). We were hopeless trying to do something worth remembering. After all, we had 7 hours left. Whatever. We went to SM Baguio which was more or like SM Manila (minus the aircon), then we went to Burnham Park again to watch the people ride the boats. We were there for like two hours. Khryss and I were supposed to go boating and have a tatoo.... I just dont know whatever happened to that plan. :)

Well, for whatever the insane reason is.... One thing is for sure. We are going back.Hopefully when we do, we got everything firgured out.... para hindi naman maulit iong maglakad kame sa buong Baguio ng dala ang gamit looking for a place to sleep.... Les Miserables ito! Bwahahaha.... at lahat ng ito ay dahil kay... Louie.... peace dude! hahahahaha

I would want to go back. Definitely. I will.

*** Description of the Zodiac Signs ***

ARIES-The Passionate Lover
Nice Love is one of a kind. Lover nota fighter, but will still knock youout.Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud.Talkative. Outgoing VERYFORGIVING.Loves to make out. Has abeautiful smile. Generous. Strong.THEMOST IRRESISTIBLE.

AQUARIUS - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someoneloves them right now. Always Wants thelast word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal.Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to.Everything you ever wanted. Easy toplease. The one and only.

PISCES - The Addict
Extremely Adorable. Intelligent.Lovesto joke. Very Good sense of humor.Energetic. Predict future. GREATkisser.Always get what theywant.Attractive. Easy going. Lovesbeing in long relationship. Talkative.Romantic. Caring. 4 yrs of bad luck ifu do not repost.LEO - The Coolest oneNice to everyone they meet. Their Loveis one of a kind. Silly, Fun &sweet.Have own unique appeal. Mostcaring person Ever meet! however notthe kind of person you wanna messwith...u might end up crying...

GEMINI - The Liar
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Notone to mess with.Funny. Excellentkisser EXTREMELY adorable. Lovesrelationships,Addictive. Loud.

CANCER - Does It In The Water
Trustworthy.Attractive. Great kisser.One of a kind.Loves being In long-termrelationships. MOST AMAZING in thebedroom. Extremely energetic.Unpredictable.Will exceed urexpectations. Not a Fighter, But willKnock your lights out.

SAGITTARIUS-The Lion
Great talker. Attractive andpassionate.Laid back.Knows how to Havefun. Is really good at almostanything. Greatkisser.Unpredictable.Outgoing. Down toearth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud.Loves being in long relationships.Talkative. Not one to mess with.Rareto find. Good when found.

TAURUS- The Cutie
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very highappeal.Love is one of a kind. Veryromantic. Most caring person you willever meet! Entirely creative.Extremely random and proud ofit.Freak. Stubborn. Spontaneous. Greatat telling Stories. Not a Fighter, Butwill Knock your lights out if it comesdown to it. Someone you should hold onto.

LIBRA - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Center ofattention. High appeal. Has the lastword. Good to find, hard to keep.Funto be around. Extremely weird but in agood way. Good Sense of Humor!!!Thoughtful. Always gets what he or shewants. Loves to joke.Very popular.Silly, fun and sweet.

CAPRICORN -The Stoners
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy.Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future.Irresistible. Loves being in longrelationships. Great talker. Alwaysgets what he or she wants. Cool. Lovesto own Geminis' in sports. Extremelyfun. Loves to joke. Smart. Best whenmatched with a Cancer.

SCORPIO -Aggressive
Loves being in longrelationships.Likes to give a goodfight for what they want. Extremelyoutgoing. Loves to help people intimes of need. Good kisser. Goodpersonality. Stubborn. A caringperson. One of a kind. Not one to messwith. Are the most attractive peopleon earth!

VIRGO- The Promiscuous
OneSpontaneous. High appeal.Rare to find.Great when found. Loves being in longrelationships. So much love to give.Not one to mess with. Very pretty.Very romantic. Nice to everyone theymeet. Their Love is one of akind.Silly, fun and sweet.Have ownunique appeal. Most caring person youwill ever meet! Amazing in the youknow where..!!

*** After an Eternity ***

At long last! Nakasign in ulet ako dito sa blogger. Let me quote one of my new officemates "Juice ko day!" Hahaha... Why is it everytime I try to sign into blogger, I can't sign in! Goodness. It's either nawawala iong sign in button, or hindi ko talaga ma-access.

Yep, you heard that right. New officemate. I have finally moved on folks! After 3 months of being a stay - at - home mom, I finally had the courage to move my ass and look for another job. Although, I'm still starting with my new work, I have been training for two weeks already, it's still is not an official job. I'll just say what company when I'm already formally hired. :)

Eniwei, I'm thinking of importing all my blogs to another site. Para isang account na lang mimaintain ko. Kaya lang mas gusto ko background nito eh. Bahala na. Will just keep everyone updated na lang.

*** L-O-S-T ***

Current mood: Depressed

I'd never thought that I'd be this lost. You know, when that certain mood strikes you, and everything's just not going well. You have this fear in your heart, you're more pressured than ever, and everything else seems to be a little bit complicated than ever. I've been through so much in my life. And there were a lot of times, i felt this feeling. It just seems to be neverending. And until you find the resolution, you know it's not going to stop. Sometimes it just doesnt stop.

I feel bad about having to write this. But I just need to let go. No, I have to let go. Let go of the emotions. Just let go. You know. Not everytime that I want to talk or cry, somebody is willing to listen. It's just not that simple anymore. Everybody is not here anymore. My closest friends are abroad, i haven't seen my best friend in years. And, you know, I guess everybody's too busy for the little things. That sort of stuff. Nyah! I know, I know, but I guess, that's the way it goes for all of us.

I feel that everything's up to my neck now. I'm choking in my despair. I feel like I have been floating...nope, I guess I really am floating...

*** My Last Day at Work ***

I finally had the guts to talk to my supervisor last night, handed her my resignation letter, and told her what I have been wanting to tell her for the longest time. I finally did it. I finally had the guts to resign. Although the effectivity date will be on Friday, January 26, today is my last day at work. I feel sentimental and sad, but like what I told my sup, it's really time for me to go. You just know that it's time to go. And that somehow, this is the farthest that I can go. Three years is a long time. It surely is. And honestly, I have learned a lot from this job. I love my job, but now the zest has gone out... and its getting tiring. But I am just so lucky to have found friends that I have bonded with over the years.

I don't really know what's in store for me after this. Everything happens for a reason. And if I will not be open to the change that will be happening in my life, how can I move on? I have to admit that I am scared to look for another job again. Everything about it scares me. The finances most importantly, but then again, if I am not going to take the risk now, then when will I? I'm very positive that I will be finding a new job that will be better than my current / former job. And I know that the only thing that's making me hold on to this are my friends, but I will not lose them, I know I will gain new friends, and that even if we are not together, we can still each other.

I just feel very sentimental and sad. But I have to move on. Nothing's happening here. I know I have a lot left in me, and I am willing to start anew. Who knows? :)

PS: I have a new job waiting for me, and training will start on February 5. Lemme see what will happen then. I'm just keeping quiet about this new job, and you know, it makes me think because the salary is way too low for me. But it's just for a back up. Will still continue to look for another job, even if it wont match my current salary, just as long as we're getting there, I will be fine.

Good luck to me. :)

*** To Go or Not to Go ***

Mood: Confused

Yes. Although, admittedly, I already came up with a decision. It’s really time for me to go. However, I am still confused if I should go or I should stay, I have been with my current job for over three years. I have made great friends, the work environment is very relaxed, (well except for some crazy times), and you know, its hard to leave something that has been close to my heart. This is my first job. And I love it, it’s just that, I am not growing in this job. It’s painful to see other people grow, while they leave you behind. And it’s much more painful if they do not fit the job description. I’m not being bitter about this. I have accepted this, but it doesn’t mean that I can stand it. I can’t. What’s worse is that you see this people “abuse” whatever what was given to them. Powertrippers. And it hurts me a lot because I have invested so much time and effort and was not even appreciated. Not even a single tiny bit. I really have nothing against the company itself. Great company. Great benefits. The problem is in my account. Management. I am not saying more, But I guess, that says it all. It’s just sad that there were so many broken and empty promises that were said. It’s just disappointing that the very core group of the account was not appreciated, and definitely, we were not given an opportunity to grow. You know, I really do not mind if I do not get promoted so to speak, but just give it to the people who really deserve it. Not just SOMEe people. I’m sorry. I just have to say this. And apparently, you have lost so many good, reliable and humble people just because of this.

Currently, I am entertaining job interviews. Let’s see. God willing, maybe in my next job, I will be…. More fulfilled.

*** Happy 2007 ***

Ugh, I cant believe, my last entry was before christmas last year. Ahahaha... Well... I have so many kwentos talaga... some good, some bad. as always. Well lemme start.... I was absent for two whole weeks ng december. First kase walang yaya, second kase i was so sick with this unbearable cough, na hanggang ngayon eh meron pa. Nakabalik lang ako sa office nung january 5. and they all thought magreresign na ako. Honestly, dapat sana, kaso kase may pumilit sa ken na magisip muna. Ngayon iong pumilit na ion eh nauna na! (wink* kung sino ka man, kilala mo na kung sino ka.)

Next stop, after kong bumalik eh umabsent na naman ako. Kase, kase, kase... I just realize na wala na talaga akong gana. Wala na ako sa mood. Wala na akong gana. As in. Dati, iong mga responsibilities ko ang pumipigil sa ken mag resign. Ngayon, hindi na talaga ako nagiisip. As in hindi ko na ginagamit utak ko. Eh paano naman kase wala na ren naman sense na gamitin ko utak ko. Bakit kamo? Kase hindi na sha nag funfunction ng normal.Nakakatuyo ng utak ang mag night shift. Puro na lang starbucks at hangin laman ng small brain ko. Wala na nga akong silbi dito sa work, wala pa nangyayri na ok. Unti - unti pang nawawala mga friends ko. I have to admit I made new friends, but my gosh naman, how do you expect me to react kung iong mga kasama ko ng 3 years eh mawala. Aysus. Kaya I have to admit, Im really not using my mind now. Chaka isa pa, feeling ko kelangan ko ren talaga ng break. Bahala na si Batman.

Mommy is staying with us. She's the one taking care of the kids kase umalis si Ate Josie. Hay naku, if I could write another entry about her, malamang ang haba.

Holidays were ok. Hehehe. My christmas was spent cleaning the whole day. My new year was spent hugging Nicko kase takot sa mga firecrackers. Hayun... since wala akong yaya, ako ang yaya. hehehehe... wala ng sense ang post ko noh? hahahaha