The Songs of My Heart

This past few days, I have been constantly listening to my copmuter radio as to avoid hearing the voice of the person that annoys me the most. Listening to them makes me reminisce those carefree days that I used to have... Then i thought, i just maybe should just...once more.... for the last time... listen to the songs of my heart...

FOR THE BOY DOWN UNDER

MAYBE THIS TIME
"Two old friends, meet again, Wearing older faces... talk about the places they have been...Maybe this time, it will be love and they'll find... Maybe now they can be more than just friends"...

The year was 1997... I was anticipating the day that you will come home because it's your cousin's wedding. It's been a while since I saw you... Everybody knows that I have liked you ever since we were kids. But the fact was that...you were shy. Another fact, it's as if you will even look at me...

After the wedding, we went out together with all of your cousins. It was like a reunion because we used to be neighbors, but since they moved to your place, we seldom see them. We went to a bar in Makati and danced the night away. I was so shy. You should have known that. I couldn't talk to you because I was too shy too speak up. You found me boring, but the truth was, I was just waiting for you to talk to me. I didn't want to be the first one to make the move because... i thought at that time, it wasn't proper. You might think that I'm coming on too strong. I remembered when we were talking inside the bar, you asked me if I liked your brother. I said, no, not really, when we were young, but not anymore. I thought I heard you say "GREAT" (or was it good?) What was that all about? ...

Then your brother told my mom that you wanted to go out with me. Was that true?...

When the day finally came for you to leave, January 30, 1997.... I went to your aunt's house to bid goodbye... i was teary eyed, you were too. When you started to shake the hands of the people around me. I was really wondering what will you do, will you shake my hand? Then finally, you went to my side, shook my hands first, then hugged me. I remembered,, when you hugged me, the tears that I was trying to hide fell... You never said anything.... You never said to wait for you. If indeed you feel something, then you could have just told me... I could've waited for you. If you just said so... I just wanted to know... Did you really like me? was there any spark? You told me that you were coming back.... but you never said that you will be coming back for me. You could've told me... Because I could've accepted you. I was willing to wait for you to come back. You did...but I was committed when you come back... maybe I guess, I just wasn't meant to be...

But if you told me to wait... i will do that even if it will take a long time...

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