My Accident - April 9, 2011

On that fateful night, or should I say early morning of Saturday, April 9, 2011, (exactly 2 weeks ago) something unfortunate happened. I was walking along a street somewhere in Paranaque, when from behind, a drunk driver hit and sideswiped me making me fly. In short, I flew, and hit my face on the pavement. The result? I scratched both my hands, my knees and my feet in the process.
I was in total shock and the first words that came out of my mouth were "I'm going home. Take me home". The tricycle driver took me home. For confidentiality purposes, I would rather not dwell and divulge anything else.
I posted some images of me from that ill-fated night.

*** Taken on the afternoon of April 9 ***

*** My swollen left hand, taken a few days after, April 12 ***

The following pictures below were taken minutes after the accident.

*** My left knee ***

*** My right arm ***

*** My right hand ***

*** My right hand, palm up ***

*** My left hand ***

So next time, be careful and be alert so as to avoid things like this from happening. I'm just so thankful that nothing really bad happened, and that I did not scratch or wounded my face, but still, the effects of what happened will be staying with me for a long time.
The truth is, I'm the type of person that gets traumatized easily. This accident really, really affected me deep down, more than anyone can ever imagine. Just like what they always say, physical wounds heal, but the emotional scars won't. It will only heal if we allow ourselves to heal.
I just hope that this person understands the depth of what he has done. I know for a fact that he was drunk because after what happened, he was driving his car like he was swaying mad. Plus the fact that he did not see me, or even noticed that he sideswiped me.
To the driver : YOU of all people should understand that you have a responsibility not just to your passengers, but to the people around you as well. It's a good thing that I was the one that you hit. Whether intentional or unintentional, still you should understand the very effect of what has happened, and that none of this would ever affect you, UNLESS YOU HAVE A CONSCIENCE.

Yeah, true, the physical wounds will eventually heal, but the emotional will you know, take some time. I don't even want to think about it because I just could not. So I really hope that you won't do it again. It's the long term effects that I am actually scared of. Something that you will never understand, because you are not the dealing with those effects. It's Me. (Unless again of course YOU have a conscience). So please stop saying like this is my fault or what. Because it's not. Yeah, it's an accident, and nobody liked what happened, but for once in your life, try to admit it's you this time who's at fault. And not me.

Quotes For You

*** Sometimes, everything needs to fall apart before it can really fit together right... ***

*** I still have feelings for you. And no matter how many times that I tell myself that I am better off without you, a part of me just won't let go... ***

*** I can't promise you a perfect relationship without arguments and differences. However, I can promise you, as long as you're trying , I am staying... ***

*** I don't want a perfect relationship. I just want someone who I can act silly with , someone who treats me well, and loves being with me... ***

*** No relationship is not perfect, but that doesn't mean that it is not worth saving... ***

*** Sometimes... two people need to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together... ***

*** It's hard to keep friendship these days, I guess people think it's okay to leave when you need them the most...***

*** In a relationship, it's always quality over quantity. Not how long you love, but how much you love...***

*** I love how we used to talk all the time, non stop, have heaps of laughs, and then one thing goes wrong, it all backfires, and now we're just like strangers...***

Blah Blah

I have been meaning to write sooner. Something about what I feel or think. But for the last days, I have been lacking inspiration to do something productive. Or creative for that matter. I've been bringing Aidan, in the hopes that I will be able to write something more, but I just could not find the time, nor the location to write my thoughts. Hopefully, will be able to write about something soon.

Random Thoughts

*** I'm at the office right now, feeling all sleepy and moody. Maybe because I lack sleep. It's a Monday. Never had a real, good rest on a Monday.

*** Hate my pathetic, crappy place. I swear, need to find a new place soon. I'm all stressed out because of that, and it's really not helping.

*** Missing my boys all of sudden. I think, I need to be a lot more patient with them. I guess it's the hormones. I wish I can tell them soon enough what the hell is really going on. They seem excited anyway.

*** My work, is okay. The pay sucks. Seriously. After almost 6 months, I'm still not used to the pay. It doesn't make any sense. But I can't find another job at this time. Maybe after 6 months.

*** Did not take the trainer role. Not at this time. My attendance sucks big time, and I need to work on it first before I take on any role. I swear.

*** Rebelling . I think.

*** Had fun last Saturday. Hopefully, we can do it again, and soon!

*** Sleepy. Sleepy. Sleepy. Will sleep later.

*** Saw the pups. My Cash is so cute. But I don't think the name Cash suits him. :)

My Weekend

It's been a long time since I went out on a weekend. I guess the last time was last year, when A and me were still okay. I miss going out every weekends. I miss hanging out, just talking to friends, watching them get drunk, or getting drunk myself too. :)

It's not that I don't like spending weekends with my boys. They're the best so far. But of course, sometimes, we all need to unwind, and sit down and just be ourselves.

I met up with old grade school friends on Saturday night. It was originally supposed to be just Mitch, Kervin and me, but the very last minute, we decided to invite some more people for added fun. Too bad it was only Rubin who came, but again, it was short notice.

We went to a bar in BF (with all of good memories in it), Carwash (I'll tell you about it on a different blog). Had a couple of songs, had a couple bucket of Gilbeys and ate nachos, then left. We were talking about so many things, laughed about so many stories all of which happened during grade school.

After that, we went to Tavern and met up with Mitch's friends, then went to her place to crash.

Hope we get to schedule another night like this, this time, with more friends... and I hope nexttime, you will be there. =)